2. AHA MOMENT:
I still remember as if it happened yesterday
It was a cold winter afternoon and that time I had already been in the US for about four months. I was sitting in the room and ... crying!
I don't know for how long I cried but at one point I stopped. I heard something inside me ask "Why are you crying?"
I replied "Because of this, and this and that"
My inner voice asked "But you wanted to come to the US - wasn't that your choice".
"YES", I said
My inner voice said "Then be happy with yourself"
I realized that was my moment of revelation. I realized that something within needed to change.
3. LIFE AFTER I ACCEPT WHO I AM AND MY SELF HEALING JOURNEY BEGAN:
It is said "When you are ready, the Universe will send you a teacher". A friend of mine sent me a few books .He also sent me a website link of his teacher, a Zen Master Monk, named Thich Tri Sieu.
I read those books and listened to the recordings of the monk on the website. At that moment I decided that I need to stop running away from myself. I need to slowly come back and heal myself first.
On my self-healing journey, I came across YOGA, MEDITATION and then ENERGY HEALING.
After that my life became something like this: Go to school, go to work, then attend a yoga class, and go back to home straight to do home-work, listen to Dharma talks, and do Meditation.
No gossip, no hanging out, no dating, just me and myself...And sometimes, I used to wonder and ask myself: "Am I living in US or a monastery?".
I never missed a single day in practicing YOGA and Meditation during last almost five years.